Back to school!!

Today I went to back to school for the first time in 18 days! It is crazy how immediately you can get distracted by the world and taken it by it all and even begin to idolize school! It was the first day back! What?!?! Oh there is just so much to overcome in the world!! Things never go perfectly, relationships are never exactly what you would like them to be, and education is hard to achieve. I realized today that this could be one of my harder semesters in high school but it also may not be if I continue to feel led by God to challenge myself. I don't know exactly where my education and career will take me but I want to live it for God to decide and have it have the ability to make disciples of Him!! There is so much stress when you go out into the world. I wish I could just live in my own little bubble but that is nearly impossible. There is so many ways satan can tempt you just by even making idols out of school and your pride. But he can also use people as a weapon against you and tempt you in those ways. I can be tempted to want more with a guy or want a relationship when I know it doesn't honor God and not what He has called me to. Or I can be tempted to get frustrated with friends and think I am the only one trying and comparing myself to others and just not being content in my relationships. One thing I really deeply long for is a relationship centered on Christ where we can talk openly about Him and just love each other really submissively to Christ. At the end of a school day you can really feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders(especially when you have 3 textbooks in your backpack:(). I worry about my sister possibly not being able to play basketball again and just about making sure that everybody is happy. It can be a strength sometimes but really exhausting others. We can never love everybody perfectly but God loves us perfectly and we can try to love others as He has loved us!! It can be exhausting but I really believe as I submit myself to God and hear Him, He will guide me to His path of righteousness and to those He wants me to really love and focus on! There are so many challenges and they can really be hard on my heart but the best news each day is I don't have to pay for my sins Jesus did it for me on the cross!! He is the most amazing Heavenly Father!!