My week:)

I have had a crazy and wonderful week redefining my relationship with God and my own life. It has been crazy with basketball season starting, but God has blessed me nightly. This school year I have begun to struggle more than ever in my past to find time for God. I would always do in the mornings when I woke up in the past, but now I have more to do at night like work, volunteering, homework, and other commitments. I have been unable to find myself opening my bible in the mornings or at night. I just don't have the same accountability with people that I used to. That is why I have been able to not open my bible except on Sunday's and sometimes not even then. But it all comes to a painful and scary end at some point. And that came for me last week when I was just beyond upset and stressed. I am never that way. I knew I needed a "break". But unfortunately I have school. 

So I took the week off from most of my communication and other worries and I met with God. I began doing my bible studies again, and I just learned soooo much! I studied a lot in 1st corinthians 3. It just resonated so much with me, with living worldy and not pleasing to God. These were some of the verses that stood out to me the most. 

I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow. So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. The one who plants and the one who waters have one purpose, and they will each be rewarded according to their own labor. For we are co-workers in God’s service; you are God’s field, God’s building. (1 Corinthians 3:6-9 NIV). 

We do need to be ministering to others and loving them, but God is the one and only that can make them actually grow and love Him more. We can teach and love but it all falls on God. He appoints us to a task and we need to be faithful. But I believe the most important thing is to have your own foundation. We can't accomplish any fruitful tasks without a strong foundation of Christ the solid rock. I needed to regain that and find that in myself. I wasn't treating people with constant love and kindness, but sarcasm, negativity and failing to meet what I should in their lives. I was skipping church some weeks and not going to other important commitments that I should be in my life. 

I had quite and upsetting incident with a close friend this week and it isn't someone that I usually get upset with but there has just been a build up of her gossiping, rudeness,swearing, and just not following through with commitments and just betrayal and I just decided I needed a break from that. I want to love her, but I need to be solid on my own first and primarily love God and do His will before I can put myself around that kind of environment again. 

I have found myself with so much more joy and forgiveness now and I just an praising the Lord God Almighty!! There are still certain people that I do need to give space to because they need it or I do. But that doesn't mean I don't love them and am not praying for them. God is more and you are more. God has control of my life and I am not in control. Lord God you are my all in all and I truly do surrender!!