Sinking deep

I was listening to Sinking deep by hillsong today during class. And I just started thinking about numerous things that we are sinking deeper and deeper until we find the love of Jesus and realize the depth of our sin. It is a mighty price we should have to pay and it really weighs down on our shoulders, but the king of all kings loved us so much that He said it didn't/doesn't matter our past as long as we commit ourselves to Him now and live a life for Him. He told us that He will not bring our past against as, but will love us in the now. And slowly that love will just wash over us and cleanse us and make us new. It's over! Lord you have cleaned me. I just think about how sometimes when I am on the farm like driving the gator I get covered in dirt head to toe. Well I have to shower and it takes time to get all cleaned up and sometimes a couple of days to get it all out of my hair. This is kind of like that. It doesn't happen instantly because we have to learn that our sin is bad and that we don't want to sin. And sometimes we might fall again before we are completely clean. Each sin has to be cleaned from our bodies. Don't forget we do fall, but it gets easier. We are not perfect but we have a perfect king. He is righteous and powerful. And He is washing us as we pray, study the word, worship Him and serve Him. He is on our side and working for us and we are working for Him. He is cleaning us and making us new. 

For King and Country concert!!!

I had the most amazing time last night praising Jesus at the For King and Country concert!! God was definitely present and just healing. I got to take Drew and Reed some of my favorite little boys who love the Lord sooooo much!! They were just pouring their hearts out to God and worshipping Him. It was an amazing time. Their name comes from an old english chant and they thought what better to be known by than For our King and country. They were amazing guys. The fame definitely hasn't gotten to them and they have all had their fair share of trials. If you missed them they will be back at winter jam in January! They took some time to share about men and women not settling for being second best and about their wives. 

Drew and Reed also got to meet my youth pastor and he gave them some free basketballs:). 

We started the evening going to orange leaf together:). 

For King and country!!

Just a reminder For King and Country will be leading worship tomorrow morning at Valley church at 8:15, 9:30, and 11! Hope to see you there! It will be an awesome service!! 

The concert is also at 7 pm tomorrow night!! 

My week:)

I have had a crazy and wonderful week redefining my relationship with God and my own life. It has been crazy with basketball season starting, but God has blessed me nightly. This school year I have begun to struggle more than ever in my past to find time for God. I would always do in the mornings when I woke up in the past, but now I have more to do at night like work, volunteering, homework, and other commitments. I have been unable to find myself opening my bible in the mornings or at night. I just don't have the same accountability with people that I used to. That is why I have been able to not open my bible except on Sunday's and sometimes not even then. But it all comes to a painful and scary end at some point. And that came for me last week when I was just beyond upset and stressed. I am never that way. I knew I needed a "break". But unfortunately I have school. 

So I took the week off from most of my communication and other worries and I met with God. I began doing my bible studies again, and I just learned soooo much! I studied a lot in 1st corinthians 3. It just resonated so much with me, with living worldy and not pleasing to God. These were some of the verses that stood out to me the most. 

I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow. So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. The one who plants and the one who waters have one purpose, and they will each be rewarded according to their own labor. For we are co-workers in God’s service; you are God’s field, God’s building. (1 Corinthians 3:6-9 NIV). 

We do need to be ministering to others and loving them, but God is the one and only that can make them actually grow and love Him more. We can teach and love but it all falls on God. He appoints us to a task and we need to be faithful. But I believe the most important thing is to have your own foundation. We can't accomplish any fruitful tasks without a strong foundation of Christ the solid rock. I needed to regain that and find that in myself. I wasn't treating people with constant love and kindness, but sarcasm, negativity and failing to meet what I should in their lives. I was skipping church some weeks and not going to other important commitments that I should be in my life. 

I had quite and upsetting incident with a close friend this week and it isn't someone that I usually get upset with but there has just been a build up of her gossiping, rudeness,swearing, and just not following through with commitments and just betrayal and I just decided I needed a break from that. I want to love her, but I need to be solid on my own first and primarily love God and do His will before I can put myself around that kind of environment again. 

I have found myself with so much more joy and forgiveness now and I just an praising the Lord God Almighty!! There are still certain people that I do need to give space to because they need it or I do. But that doesn't mean I don't love them and am not praying for them. God is more and you are more. God has control of my life and I am not in control. Lord God you are my all in all and I truly do surrender!!  

Creighton business symposium 2014

On Friday I had the pleasure of attending the largest student ran business conference in the country! It was a very fancy and wonderful day and I learned a lot. The century link center is also amazing!! But in the car ride I had some time to think. I am not where I desire or should be at wjth my relationship with God. I hardly ever spend time wjth Him besides when I am singing, I am friends with a lot of great christians, but they don't substitute for God, I have become very negative and sarcastic. All in all I am going back to the person I used to be before I was made new in Christ. Now this is due to several things and areas of sin, but I need to fix it. I need to go humbly before God and break down and give my heart back to Him. I can't keep blaming other people or holding onto people that I should be letting go of. I can't keep trying to hold on to the past or bring the past back. The past is done and history does not repeat itself. God has forgiven, but I need to ultimately find myself again. This is why I will be taking a break from blogging for a week or two. 

Here are some pictures from my awesome day!!